I know I’ve been quite quiet lately (yes, I wrote that on purpose. Quite…quiet… Get it? Okay), but I suddenly felt like sharing the below.
Disclaimer: I had a thousand thoughts on my mind while I wrote this, so excuse me if it all sounds weird and not connected.
I love a good challenge, especially one I can take on and put my mind into, and I know I can succeed, but I can’t help but panic. Why?
At first, I panic, and then I say “what the heck” and jump right in, and then when I’m in it, I know I will win it, and I say to myself “I got this”. And let me tell you, this feeling, the feeling where I can taste victory, this feeling is everything. I often find myself smiling, or laughing, or cracking witty jokes, and I’m in the best mood ever. And all of this is because I enjoy what I do, and all the challenges that come with it.
Even when a job is easy and does not come with a challenge (no extra research for example), I still manage to make a challenge out of it, by setting myself a crazy goal and trying to finish the project way before the deadline. And I’m not trying to prove anything to anyone, it’s just that I like to keep things spicy, and I try to have as much fun with my job as possible, and I think it has to do with my character.
I write daily to-do lists, and whoever reads them might think I am crazy for setting such unrealistic goals. I try to run a million errands a day. Some might ask me “Why do you pressure yourself?”. I love being super productive, and there is something about crossing every single task off my to-do list that makes me feel euphoric. It gives me the feeling that I can do anything, and it actually starts with the little things.
If there is something you think you can’t do, but end up being able to actually do it, how good does that feel? You feel invincible.
“If it doesn’t challenge you, it doesn’t change you”