An Open Letter to my Children
To Moni and Andy, my heart and soul, and the reason for my existence,
I am writing this today. I am 30, healthy and still have so many things I want to accomplish in my life. But even if I fail to do so, and even if I had and were nothing else, being your mom is more than good enough for me. Come to think of it, I don’t need to be anything else, I am now complete, but I still work hard to be everything I want to be, to set a good example for you to follow your dreams, because you can be whoever you want to be, and there’s no one and nothing stopping you.
My sweet baby Moni,
You don’t like it when I still call you like that. You want me to call you by your real name; but no matter how old you get, you will always be my baby. Just live with it 😀
The other day when we were at the mall, you looked up to your dad and said: “I want a baby sister”.
When he told me what you had said, I was speechless. Was it a sign? I don’t know. All I know is that my love for you and your baby brother is unconditional, and if you ever get a baby sister, I will teach you to love and protect her with all your heart and all your power.
Your father and I won’t be around forever, so we try to instill good values in you and your brother. We want you to be responsible citizens, successful people enjoying good health, blessed with love and happiness. But above all, I want you to know that when you cry because I reprimand you today, it is only so that I don’t have to cry in the future. I was in your shoes, I gave my mom a hard time, and now I regret it. I hope you understand that I do it for you, because I love you. This is my duty towards you and Andy.
To my little angel Andy,
You’re too little now, but your big giggles fill the house with joy. You are such a witty boy. You are a ball of energy, and I’m having a hard time keeping up, but don’t worry. I’m up for the challenge. I want to spend as much time with you as possible.
When everything will seem to go against your plans, know that the memories we build are what we will hold on to. They are our hope to get through the hard days and rise to the top again.
I couldn’t be prouder of you than I already am. I am so lucky that you take after your amazing dad. Each one of you reminds me of him in a particular way. It’s astonishing how you don’t resemble each other, and how each one of you two has features from both your dad and me. I guess this explains how much we love each other. We love each other so much that it shows in you, and for that I am overwhelmed with gratitude.
My message for you is this: Believe in yourselves and do everything with love. Be kind, strong and wise. I know you will make mistakes, it’s inevitable; but I also know that you will learn from them. Even though I try not to let you fall, it is because I’m your mom and I don’t want to see you hurt, but eventually you will have to make your own experiences, have your own trials and errors, shape your own self, build your own character. So I will be your guide and your mentor, hoping that you see me as your idol one day. That would be my reward in the long run.
Leading by example: it’s easier said than done, but humans are a work in progress, and I learned not to aim for perfection, but rather progression.
In the end, I hope you know that nothing will ever stand in my way when it comes to your happiness. I hope you know that I will never love anyone as much as I love you. Know that I am so proud of you, and I plan to be there for you during your journey which is just beginning. It is going to be one exciting roller coaster ride, and I couldn’t be more ready to cherish each future moment I have with you.
With my utmost love